keep smiling ??

my life at this moments
it's kinda hard
right now
a LOT of things happened
some things started getting better
others got worst
and others just,, I don't know.

The letter you wrote me
It's pure bullshit.
The affection you said you had
It's pure bullshit.
every word you said
It's pure bullshit.

some words

What you most love
like friends
family or lovers
is what hurts you the most
& everyone
has to live with it.

thoughts

sometimesIthink
IfIdissappear
noonewillevennoticeit
sometimesIthink
thatIshouldn'tbeenborn
Ijustthink.

synthesis of nothing

I can't
I can't sleep again tonight
Now show me.. what is behind your smile
and I'll show you what is behind my mask
「G o o d B y e」dear, GoodBye to myself
We'll fly high, hold my hand
we won't fall, we won't die, we won't live..
we won't..
Like if I wanted to forget you, It's that I can't
we won't cry, we won't laugh..
you had a name, now, you are nothing
In the local T.V. program, than one we never watch,
I'm still waiting at the park bench
down the dead tree
Little butterflies flown
Little birds flown
never stop
Like our hand
never letting go..
I still hearing yout voice through the speaker.

ゆめ

I see the baby crying, balloons in the sky & the T.V. with no signal. And your voice doesn't sound like music in my ear. stunning my ears. the sound of the chopped off finger, the noisy silence in the room & the phone that don't stop ringing. The fly in the petrified food, the storm in the glass, the trick in the gift & the baby keep crying.
If it is a dream
wake me up
If it is real
just kill me.

- 鼓動-heartbeat

the quiet sound on my chest
the never-ending pause betwen life & death
here I am
betwen light and darkness
with no more to pray
'till the sun burn my words
to「...」you who has no name
the heartbeat「僕」stopped
in the second I stopped
seeing light. 「貴方」